-Starlit Night-

Like that one star, Lost within millions of others.

Man seriously my only idols and celeb crushes are Gackt, Misa Campo and Leah Dizon, seriously D: they all make me go >.< farrrrrrrrrrr then again they're all way out of my league -_- oh not gackt though cuz you know =/

Anyyyywhoo, goddam Tsubasa was an epic manga. Probably one of the best mangas I've ever read, could possibly top love hina. Meh guess I have a thing for plot twists and romance =/


If it's true, sigh....
Thanks Mr. Frankie..

Apparently there are meteor showers today o.o Can't spot any day, too cloudy here OTL
Had my first exam, 5 more to go =x
Fucked up so bad on English, spent like 1 hour doing the first essay, another hour on another, 45 on one, and 15 minutes on the last one -_- wrote slightly less than 2 pages for the last three essays D: also I heard if they're under 200 words they won't get marked at all..
Fuck. I doubt mine are, everyone wrote two and a half pages and I didn't even finish 2 pages for most.


lol fuuuuuu- 3 days left till exams D: and I haven't finished studying any topics xD
Brooooooooo getting so many distractions, study leave sucks the dick >.>
First DS, then music and getting my internet back, then street fighter lol
Bah, pray to the flying spaghetti monster to get me through the exams =3
Last minute studying has never failed me before, better not fucking fail me now =D 

Mehhhhh cbf anymore, tired of totally trying to understand others, everyone tries to make themselves an enigma. Sometimes I really wish they wouldn't. Wouldn't the world be so much better? Although I don't really blame them thinking that way themselves, the world is a complete nest of faggotory, but even with my complete lack of faith in humanity I still understand that there are still good people in the world, don't think others understand that really =/
Wouldn't kill to trust once in a while, hell do I really seem like that bad a person either?
Guess theres lots of two-faced people in the world too, meh I know a lot of them, I used to be one myself back in 3rd form with those three.
Meh, to be truthfully honest, helping people in my life has gotten me completely nowhere. I don't even know why I do it. I receive absolutely nothing in return over the long run, just hugs and 'ilys' and more attention for a while. Bleh doesn't mean I won't stop helping people though =/ It's just something I fucking do and can't get rid off.
Fucking rage though, wish I could stop, though I can say that I've been helping people to a lesser degree over the years, unless they're important to myself lol 
Rant over =3

lol tried to shuffle to hardstyle, kinda not suited to it I guess =/ meh prefer hard trance anyways xD
Ha.. uneventful day today, got raped by vaginaman at sf3, jinxin just pwned me with his makoto although I wasn't really trying, he seems to think he's better than me now or something =/
Still raped him over a few times before he said 'gg' with his makoto.
Studying ain't going too well, then again I don't think it's going too well with anyone, or it just might be me =/
Just noticed theres been a lot of break-ups on fb recently? Meh weird shit bro
Lol I can't wait till the exams are over > < free at last D:

Bahhhh, another uneventful day I guess =x
Studied for like 2 mins today =D just read the same shit I read in class on the last day -.-
Guess I'm lucky that we get study break, I have pretty much 9 days left until the serious exams start *english doesn't count cuz you can't really study for it >.>*
Lol I've been thinking what it would be like to have a little sister instead of a bro =/
Mines pretty cool I guess, but he can get really fucking annoying xD
Just noticed I have a lot of weird dreams about zombies, just had one last night about surviving a z-apocalypse with some random girl, and I went to find wooden weapons o.o
Speaking of random girls, haven't had one of those 'perfect partner' dreams in a while D: those were epic, but then you wake up and go OTL
Meh enough of this anyway lol, well it's not like anyone reads this I guess =x

Hmm nothing much happened today =x
Just procastinating and not studying at all xD
Need some motivation =D
Invisible reader, give meh sum =3

Hmm a friend of mine bought up a very good point today =x
She sent me a link to a facebook group of 'You've Been Going Out 3 Days, You're Not Fucking In Love'.
I agreed with it and liked the group at first, but then I thought, wait aren't I like that? o.o
I've said ily pretty early when I dated girls, but I guess you could say I was in love before I asked them out? o.o But then again how do I know I'm really in love then =/
Confusing shit is confusing, can't tell the difference between like and love -__-
Even googled the shit, apparently if you think about them like everyday, change when you're around them, and feel really nervous and stuff around them then you're in love.
But then wtf, cuz I feel like that around most girls that I like? Or maybe I'm just in love with everyone -_____-
So maybe my emotions are all fucked up =D
Speaking of which, it seems that I've lost all ability to get angry >.> Things/people that would normally make me rage at them only piss me off now =/ Only person who can manage to do so is my mom rofl, but thats a different situation xD
Aren't I just so fucked up? =3

Last day of school today =o We had a half-day, all of us went down to KFC lol.
Lol when we were walking past mcdonalds on our way, there was an ambulance parked outside it with this chubby girl crying over her friend, who was lying unconscious on the ground. Pretty sure they were 7th form, could be wrong =x
Anyway these group of guys were looking at them too, hardcore white singlet fags, wonder if they had anything to do with it =o or just waiting for teh rape tiem.
There was a hot as 7th form with a short as dress too =3 she was looking from the staircase window of KFC building roflmao.
Anyway when we got in there it was epic awesomes, so many other fags in there, +20 more asians rofl, there wasn't enough seats in the house.
Lauren and her friends were there too =o did not expect.
Johnathan and his gf and shit were as well -__-
lol crystal and ritchie came along too o.o it was a pretty random experience.
Then went to James house and did shit, frankie's so hardcore on teh piano. And god james needs a new keyboard. And roflmao I locked myself in the toilet and couldn't get out.
His front door lock is fucking hardcore too o.o
So now 3 fags live on the street, all the houses there are so hardcore D: I wanna live there.
Bought an l&p on the way back lol was niec =3
anyway, best KFC meal I've ever had in mah lief, ultimate burger combo owns =D

long post is long/

Today was a random day, cloudy and rainy =x
Nub seniors which are leaving this year all chucking water bombs and flour at each other.

Some faggot threw yoghurt into a crowd from behind, and wtf it got on me wtf /rage.
Turned around and saw him sprinting into the fucking auditorium D=<

Meh would've chased him if there was a place to put my bag -.- fucking rage
Anyway in eco today beat matt and will at arm wrestle woot =D, wtf korean girls in front of me learning chinese, they lol'ed at me o.o tbh first time I saw lauren laugh so wtfs =3 pretty cute tbh >.>
Leo appears to be some fighter wannabe, or he actually might be =/ that muay thai move looked pretty accurate tbh, reckon ploy could waste him though rofl.
lol I shouldn't have spent that period on the internet, now I'm stuck on my internal with not idea what to do xD
And I still haven't started studying =3

Ahhh didn't post yesterday, mannnn I was supposed to start studying like 3 days ago, didn't get anything done xD
Anyway my internet got broken and fixed today, thanks to some awesome islander guy =D
First islander guy I've ever liked actually =P He was awesome, epic yup convos ftw =3
Anyway, I might start studying today, at like 9PM >.>

Bah, said I would study today, turns out I didn't do any =x
Part of the reason is cuz DBZ saiyan invasion came out for DS, it's fucking awesome =D
Reminds me how epic DBZ was =3 Fell asleep the whole period in Jap today, fighting sleepiness is fun lol
Had a dream about msn o.o and I was talking to randoms =o
Boring life is boring =x

1st of November =x How time flies amirite?
Anyway picking up shuffling again was worth it, new tracks ftw =D
But blah, exams in 2 weeks time, I have absolutely no motivation to study x_x
Wonder how Allie's doing o.o Hope she's not in any problems =/
Nothing much on my mind today, just typical everyday stuffs =3

Started shuffling again <3
Love it so much, more so than popping =3
Anyway was randomly looking through class photos the other day, I wonder where all the primary fags are and how they're doing =x
Was fighting with brother and he uppercutted me >.> Hurt quite a bit surprisingly, never been hit in the jaw before =/ Opened a pepper box which exploded in mah face, been sneezing/sniffling for the past 6 hours now D:
Anyway, pretty uneventful day, Saturdays ftw though =3
Halloween today too D: do not want fags knocking on mah door.

Dunno what to talk about really, though kudos to Frankie =3 he's awesome lol
Listening to problems is so underrated =/ I'd had my fair share of lunchtime innuendo to last me three lifetimes =x Wow that made me sound like an emo fag o.o
Anyway, exams coming up soon, so not keen >.> haven't started studying either xD
I've got to learn to stop comparing myself with others, just makes me depressed D:
Though I probably will never change amirite? -.-

 lol wow haven't felt this feeling in a while o.o Just need someone to spill shit to and get decent advice =P Meh don't trust anyone enough though =x they'll probably troll the shit out of me if I told them anyway, or anyone else >.>

Oh anyway, I just remembered this story from Fruits Basket, the World's Stupidest Tourist.

It was about the world's stupidest person on a trip, and because he was so stupid, people cheated him wherever he went.
During that time, all his money, clothes and his possessions were cheated away from him....
But the tourist was simply too stupid, so they just took all his things with a simple "Thank you for your help"
He even cried at made up stories and just gave up everything he owned.
In the end he was completely naked and he started feeling embarrassed.

So he went out into the forest to hide, But in the forest he met demons.
The demons wanted to eat him, so they come up with a skillful plan to cheat him.
Of course, the tourist fell for it and offered an arm, and leg.
In the very end, the tourist only had his head left. He even gave his eyes to the last of the demons.

The demon told him while eating his eyes, "Thank you very much, I've a present for you as well".
But that was a lie too, the so-called present was just a note that said "IDIOT".
The tourist was so touched that he cried at this.
"Thank you! Oh Thank you! so much" he said.
"This is the first time ever getting a present, I'm really happy, thank you so much!"
And tears just come endlessly out of his empty eye sockets
The tourist was left out in the wild where he silently died.

Ohay is that me? Cuz thats what I would've been if I didn't rapidly change my thinking.

'Cool story bro' amirite? =x 

Sigh.. ever had one of those days, that you were pissed off at someone but had no idea why?
One of those days at the mo.. Do not want. Guess I'm still paranoid, always wanting to know what people really think and their hidden motives. Guess that also makes me a dick to a lot of people.
Anyway.. decided to actually listen to all the right moves, it sounds so much better to me for some reason now. Mainly because I know what they're singing about, and can relate. They really do have deep lyrics. Guess even Ryan Tedder feels the same way sometimes =o

Visited Jordan for anniversary today,
Same as every year, one rose and a fanta.
Do want time travel power.

Inferiority Complex ftw.

First blog entry =P

4 Days till Halloween o.o not really looking forward to it, don't want fags and their parents knocking at my door =/

Nothing eventful today lol, just the usual stuff. Not keen for piano lesson tomorrow OTL going to get lectured by teacher for not doing any practise lol

School was the same, fell asleep during maths, free 1 hour of sleep ftw =]

Well first blog start I guess, boring life ftw